Cried yesterday, because I still miss you.

I get it, you’re not available. Forget that I called.

The pain would just not go away.

I really need to stop thinking about you, it’s driving me slightly insane.

I am weak minded because I called you last night, and wanted to hear your voice. I was heart broken after hearing that you didn’t want to go back.

I can’t do this anymore, I love you so much and won’t you just give me a chance?

I couldn’t hold myself back anymore so I called you…and you not answering the phone made me cry. Should I leave a voicemail or send you a text? Or neither?

So I tried to call you, but decided against it…It’s weird having days when I want to call you, then have to tell myself no, and the emptiness that immediately follows is just unbearable.

I don’t know how many days it’s been now…probably five? Anyway, still dreaming of you, yep. Bad? Yep.

Oh my God, can I please stop being a dumbass? So what I thought, jee it’d be miracle if you signed on AIM again before I turned on the computer, and so what the miracle did come true and you were right on there, on the top of my buddy list, with your non discrete, super short, screen name…so what I knew that I was probably still the only one on your buddy list and you are probably only on it because it’s Friday night, you are playing a board game with your friends, and drunk and thought why not and signed on your iPhone….ALL OF THIS does not merit a “haha I thought you’d never sign on here again” on my behalf, I’m simply a dumbass for trying to initiate a conversation with you, because I was just lying in bed thinking about you, and have been missing you like crazy for the past week. You know what, Ivy, you are a dumbass, and you probably deserve to be dumped by eternity. Please go slap yourself…hard.