Quando quando quando

Cried yesterday, because I still miss you.

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 09:54:23 +1200

Cried yesterday, because I still miss you.

I get it, you’re not available. Forget that I called.

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 17:06:14 +1200

I get it, you’re not available. Forget that I called.

The pain would just not go away.

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 17:26:29 +1200

The pain would just not go away.

I really need to stop thinking about you, it’s driving me slightly insane.

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 16:25:58 +1200

I really need to stop thinking about you, it’s driving me slightly insane.

I am weak minded because I called you last night, and wanted to hear your voice. I was heart broken...

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 15:09:44 +1200

I am weak minded because I called you last night, and wanted to hear your voice. I was heart broken after hearing that you didn’t want to go back.

I can’t do this anymore, I love you so much and won’t you just give me a chance?

I couldn’t hold myself back anymore so I called you…and you not answering the phone made...

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 16:11:46 +1200

I couldn’t hold myself back anymore so I called you…and you not answering the phone made me cry. Should I leave a voicemail or send you a text? Or neither?

So I tried to call you, but decided against it…It’s weird having days when I want to...

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 15:56:08 +1200

So I tried to call you, but decided against it…It’s weird having days when I want to call you, then have to tell myself no, and the emptiness that immediately follows is just unbearable.

I don’t know how many days it’s been now…probably five? Anyway, still dreaming of...

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 15:12:17 +1200

I don’t know how many days it’s been now…probably five? Anyway, still dreaming of you, yep. Bad? Yep.

Oh my God, can I please stop being a dumbass? So what I thought, jee it’d be miracle if you...

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 15:09:55 +1200

Oh my God, can I please stop being a dumbass? So what I thought, jee it’d be miracle if you signed on AIM again before I turned on the computer, and so what the miracle did come true and you were right on there, on the top of my buddy list, with your non discrete, super short, screen name…so what I knew that I was probably still the only one on your buddy list and you are probably only on it because it’s Friday night, you are playing a board game with your friends, and drunk and thought why not and signed on your iPhone….ALL OF THIS does not merit a “haha I thought you’d never sign on here again” on my behalf, I’m simply a dumbass for trying to initiate a conversation with you, because I was just lying in bed thinking about you, and have been missing you like crazy for the past week. You know what, Ivy, you are a dumbass, and you probably deserve to be dumped by eternity. Please go slap yourself…hard.

This is what I woke up to this morning. SO. DAMN. CUTE.

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 07:44:13 +1200

This is what I woke up to this morning. SO. DAMN. CUTE.

I swear now I feel like a foster mother, this morning when I was trying to leave and decided not to...

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 07:41:59 +1200

I swear now I feel like a foster mother, this morning when I was trying to leave and decided not to bring bunny, he gave me this look and I was like, aw, J would not approve, so now he’s sitting right in my backpack. FML. It’s just a stuffed animal. I’m starting J’s only with me because of how cute this little bastard is.

Third night in a row having dreams of you. This kind of pattern is scary.

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 17:27:31 +1200

Third night in a row having dreams of you. This kind of pattern is scary.

Sometimes I fall in love so quickly, and it’s scary.

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 10:46:55 +1200

Sometimes I fall in love so quickly, and it’s scary.

Since I stopped wearing the ring, my finger has been feeling pretty naked lately, so sometimes...

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 10:45:06 +1200

Since I stopped wearing the ring, my finger has been feeling pretty naked lately, so sometimes I’d substitute with another ring….but they just don’t have the same heavy, sweaty feeling around my finger anymore. So today, I thought well why not, so I wore it.

It felt really good.

“Typically good-natured, upbeat and laid-back, ENTPs can be delightful people to be around....

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 07:20:00 +1200

“Typically good-natured, upbeat and laid-back, ENTPs can be delightful people to be around. They get a lot of enjoyment and satisfaction from interacting with others, and especially enjoy discussing and debating theories and concepts which interest them. They may be prone to initiate arguments because they so enjoy the debate. They are generally fun-loving and gregarious, and can be quite charming. They have a problem with sometimes neglecting their close relationships when they become involved in the pursuit of a new idea or plan.”

Ah, shit.

http://www.personalitypage.com/ENTP_rel.html

I’ve realized how good it is to have this blog, it refrains me from writing on my other blog...

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 16:07:31 +1200

I’ve realized how good it is to have this blog, it refrains me from writing on my other blog about such topics, because honestly, I hate writing about love.

I think at this point, I have come in terms with relationship failures, meaning I know some things I do that are crucial to failing are going to need a complete 180, or I can just failing. Such things such as uneasiness to believe in happy endings, and prone to calling them off while being too emotional of small flaws, and trying to ignore others’ hurt feelings.

Well, that is all for today kids. Later.

I had a weird dream last night, although I wouldn’t be surprised if it happened in real life....

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 08:00:52 +1200

I had a weird dream last night, although I wouldn’t be surprised if it happened in real life.

I was in the car with J going to Wegmans, and halfway ‘til our destination, his friend S called and asked him to pick up him and some other friends. Then I insisted we go pick up groceries first and then pick the people up because they were out of the way, but J wouldn’t, so he ended up dropping me off on the side of the road and left to pick up his friends. I remember in the dream I was trying to run home, but it was too far away and I got lost, and then I woke up.

This is a bad sign, once I start having dreams about an ex…it’s a bad sign. Same thing happened to me when I broke up with my first boyfriend - I had the same dream about him every night for more than a year.

copycats: Quando, Quando, Quando by Michael Bubleoriginally by...

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 08:38:00 +1200

copycats:

Quando, Quando, Quando by Michael Buble
originally by Tony Renis
(posted by mi alegria)

Tell me when will you be mine

Tell me quando quando quando

We can share a love devine

Please don’t make me wait again

When will you say yes to me

Tell me quando quando quando

You mean happiness to me

Oh my lover tell me when

Every moments a day

Every day seems a lifetime

Let me show you the way

To a joy beyond compare

I can’t wait a moment more

Tell me quando quando quando

Say its me that you adore

And then darling tell me when

Every moments a day

Every day seems a lifetime

Let me show you the way

To a joy beyond compare

I can’t wait a moment more

Tell me quando quando quando

Say its me that you adore

And then darling tell me when

Whoa lover tell me when

Oh darling tell me when

Oh come on tell me when

Yea tell me when